100 suns shine.
a smear of baby blue skies
and the world swings up.
remember when
remember when.
remember when we were young
and life was a big easter egg hunt?
remember when.
remember when
we used to share secrets
and giggle for no reason?
remember when we were both
young and the sun was the
colour of our hair?
remember when.
remember when
small bare feet slapped
against hot sand?
when we threw ourselves
at the world with abandon
and we were caught?
remember when.
remember when
we’d fight over bunk beds
and make forts with thread
bare sheets?
when prized possessions
were twigs and grass
stones and sea shells?
remember when.
remember when.
remember when
you was all i ever needed?
us against the world.
we were warriors
wiry wiggly giggly warriors.
remember when.
remember when
life was freshly mowed lawn
and rolling beaches
and frothy surf?
remember when.
remember when
we rode our bikes
out to the horizon
just because we could
and we chased the moon
back home?
remember when.
remember when
we were small
but our hearts and
smiles were big?
when we traded cards
and played marbles
and lived in awe
of ants and shongololos?
remember when.
remember when
the sky was our canopy
bikes our chariots
and hills our castles?
remember when.
remember when
we owned the world
and we shared it with everyone?
what happened then?
hearfelt in spite
the room was dark.
snakes coiled in ceilings
and on floors.
their bite is sharp
but they move slow.
in the bowels of bricks
and mortar.
the gnashing and wailing
of teeth.
kind words from barbed
tongues.
bleeding red for a bit
of green.
my toes curled
and my belly curdled.
sinking feeling.
my soul’s plummet
to bottom basement.
if i could ask for more.
nay i have asked for more.
walls speak louder to me
than whispers sent
to heaven.
perhaps i should speak to hell.
or speak of hell.
this is the land of the living.
an inferno
in an internal heart.
beating optimism.
again and again and again.
no end in sight just
rabbid wolves chasing
in delight.
friendly journey
the long road of hope
winds from dusk till early dawn.
are we there yet friend.
outside
outside.
outside this paned window.
outside this window.
framed in white wood.
this paint splitting.
drooling white splinters
on the brown floor.
outside this window.
through the glass.
through the glass
that wobbles sighs and sags.
outside.
outside this glass.
day drops his pants.
naked across the white light.
this white light cold
and shivering.
outside.
outside this window.
day is kicked black and blue
as the night man watches.
outside this window
the night spreads day
into smudges out west.
outside.
outside this house.
the stars prick holes
in my blanket.
a blanket dark and cold.
outside.
outside this day.
like another day.
a day like any other day.
outside this day.
this fraying and neighing.
these horseman drawing closer
dragging night sky behind them.
outside.
the same inside.
the day sighs close.
another man to lose.
another hangman to noose.
this grip on life
loose.
outside.
outside this life.
another tale of strife?
my day is dark a lark
in the morning
the robin red breast sings.
a song a warble a chirp a trill.
the sun opens his eye
and smiles a while.
birds of a feather flock together.
a black dart across bleeding sky.
red robin mute.
cat got his tongue.
my father crawls across
my heart a trail of thousand ants.
my blood sweet nectar.
pierce my soul a drop
of oil.
the toil the strife this
heavy life.
my day drawn dark
my song a soft echo
from the dying lark.